I'll try not to ramble in this post. But there are so many things in my brain trying to get out I may go off course. Bare with me.
Yesterday I was thinking that through this journey we sometimes can get very self involved. I mean can you blame us. Its as though we have to get to know a whole new person. If you can't love or relate to the person in the mirror then how can you go forward? OK that being said I think a lot of us who want to try and avoid that do things like volunteer and reach out to others who are going through this journey or similar. I know for me that's what I try to do and I think I know alot of others who do the same. But we all have these moments when we think too much about OUR struggle, Our triumphs and Our goals and forget what is going on around us. What others are observing from us. What Blueprint we are making on the world. Let me explain.
I was struggling very hard to loose some weight I had gained over the holidays. 5 lbs or so, and I focused on this everyday. Not obsessed but focused. and like always it went up it went down , Blah blah blah , but I lost sight of what was going on around me. The things that had nothing to do with the scale.
#1. Through my support groups I have started building some really fantastic friendships and I'm very grateful for those. #2. I put together a really cute fashion show at our support group, I got things donated to it and it was very successful, this was an accomplishment, #3 I found my voice a little lately and took charge of a few things in my life #4 I have reconnected with my sister I haven't spoken too in nearly 12 years #5. I have made a difference in peoples lives .....let me explain
I was in star bucks and a women approached me ( this is not surprising anymore ) and told me she had to say thank you. Thank you for being the face of our Hospitals program because I encouraged a friend of hers to have the surgery and she knows that it has saved her friends life. She went on to tell me that she herself suffered her whole life from weight issues and eating disorders and she wanted me to know that I have touched and saved peoples lives by being on the billboards and such and she wanted me to know that I have made a difference in the world. I was so touched I cant even tell you. Blown away actually . i have people come up to me ALL the time and tell me their stories and say hello and I look great but this was a special thing to hear. I realized at that point that I needed to focus on those things not that 5 lb gain that I have worked my butt off to get rid of. I need to realize I have a purpose here. I was given a great gift of exposure and I hope that I can continue to support and expose how life can change if your willing to do the work. If you need the help ask for it, go for it , work for it.
I have also put together this support group that meets every week at our local Starbucks. through this I have a chance to really get to know great people going through the same challenges I face and we keep each other strong and positive. At our group yesterday my Friend Lori, Who I meet through our hospital support group ( and she has told me since day one I was her inspiration for the surgery) has become a friend as well as support person. She told our group yesterday that she knew from the moment she heard me talking at one of our support groups that she wanted to be my friend. She said she would be disappointed when I couldn't be at one. I was so touched by the things she was saying, and again it made me realize that I had made a difference without even knowing it.
In fashion we often say think outside of the box but I think in Life we sometimes have to look outside the box and see what everyone else sees too.....
Yesterday I was thinking that through this journey we sometimes can get very self involved. I mean can you blame us. Its as though we have to get to know a whole new person. If you can't love or relate to the person in the mirror then how can you go forward? OK that being said I think a lot of us who want to try and avoid that do things like volunteer and reach out to others who are going through this journey or similar. I know for me that's what I try to do and I think I know alot of others who do the same. But we all have these moments when we think too much about OUR struggle, Our triumphs and Our goals and forget what is going on around us. What others are observing from us. What Blueprint we are making on the world. Let me explain.
I was struggling very hard to loose some weight I had gained over the holidays. 5 lbs or so, and I focused on this everyday. Not obsessed but focused. and like always it went up it went down , Blah blah blah , but I lost sight of what was going on around me. The things that had nothing to do with the scale.
#1. Through my support groups I have started building some really fantastic friendships and I'm very grateful for those. #2. I put together a really cute fashion show at our support group, I got things donated to it and it was very successful, this was an accomplishment, #3 I found my voice a little lately and took charge of a few things in my life #4 I have reconnected with my sister I haven't spoken too in nearly 12 years #5. I have made a difference in peoples lives .....let me explain
I was in star bucks and a women approached me ( this is not surprising anymore ) and told me she had to say thank you. Thank you for being the face of our Hospitals program because I encouraged a friend of hers to have the surgery and she knows that it has saved her friends life. She went on to tell me that she herself suffered her whole life from weight issues and eating disorders and she wanted me to know that I have touched and saved peoples lives by being on the billboards and such and she wanted me to know that I have made a difference in the world. I was so touched I cant even tell you. Blown away actually . i have people come up to me ALL the time and tell me their stories and say hello and I look great but this was a special thing to hear. I realized at that point that I needed to focus on those things not that 5 lb gain that I have worked my butt off to get rid of. I need to realize I have a purpose here. I was given a great gift of exposure and I hope that I can continue to support and expose how life can change if your willing to do the work. If you need the help ask for it, go for it , work for it.
I have also put together this support group that meets every week at our local Starbucks. through this I have a chance to really get to know great people going through the same challenges I face and we keep each other strong and positive. At our group yesterday my Friend Lori, Who I meet through our hospital support group ( and she has told me since day one I was her inspiration for the surgery) has become a friend as well as support person. She told our group yesterday that she knew from the moment she heard me talking at one of our support groups that she wanted to be my friend. She said she would be disappointed when I couldn't be at one. I was so touched by the things she was saying, and again it made me realize that I had made a difference without even knowing it.
In fashion we often say think outside of the box but I think in Life we sometimes have to look outside the box and see what everyone else sees too.....
